One Block to Meditation

It’s not that you can’t meditate. It’s that you were trained not to trust yourself.

Turning within is a first step to meditation, and it’s often a huge stumbling block for many people.

Everything about our extroverted, voyeuristic culture has trained you to be overt and expressive, always tell entertaining weekend, summer, vacation stories of going and doing – all to look good and entertaining to others.

But for millions of years we humans lived in very different ways.

We still had all our capacities out in the open.

Everyone was telepathic, everyone could read the elements, know what the weather was saying, clouds and wind and seas.

Everyone was deeply connected, aware of, and in communication with the inner spirit or consciousness of all matter.

It was a given.

But in the last few seconds of human history – the past 6 – 8 thousand years, all of our deep wisdom connection with our own nature, nature all around, and the consciousness of life itself, we’ve been bit by bit disconnected from our true selves.

Doesn’t matter why or how as much as what we are going to do about it now.

When you have, innate within you, more capacities than anyone in society will acknowledge or value you are set up to doubt your sanity right out the gate.

As a kid, you knew energetically the state of all the other people in the house. Especially so if there was any PTSD, addiction, or denial in the adults and let’s face it – there was, even if unnamed, unaddressed, and denied.

When you are always looking outside yourself to be safe, to know what is going on, you are “other” oriented, and your center is not within you.

A baby by nature looks to the others caring for them to mirror back what the world is, what’s going on, and what the baby should pay attention to and do. That’s how we’re built.

But if the parent cannot be a true mirror for the child, the child will be aware of the discrepancies, even without language, and try to reconcile the dissonance.

As the baby child knows their well-being depends on these others, it will choose to align with the others, and disregard and distrust its own sense of what’s real.

So as an adult when you decide to learn to meditate, that old, probably forgotten distrust of self kicks in.

If you cannot trust yourself, as your early training taught you, then meditating is going to be like something forbidden and costly. It could cost your belonging.

As a child that was too high a price to pay, naturally.

And as an adult, learning to turn within will activate that old programming.

You can either stop, believing the old programming - don’t trust yourself - and your little child’s conclusion – If I am myself I will be abandoned to die.

Or, you can engage with that younger part.

Today you could say to that younger you that present you is here and doesn’t want your younger self abandoned any longer.

Now that present-you knows how scared younger-you was — and how real and valid that fear was — you can offer what no one else did:

Acknowledgment.

You can say, “Yes, that would’ve been awful. You weren’t crazy for being scared.”

And now, you get to promise: “I’m here for you. I’m not leaving. I won’t shun or abandon you, even when I mess up. I want to learn how to keep listening, keep showing up, and keep being on your side — always.”

This is the tone of learning to turn within.

Gentleness.

That’s what begins it — the simple act of acknowledging the fear.

Not trying to fix it. Just seeing it.

The fear that made sense at the time. The fear that was true to your younger self’s reality.

That moment of validation — that genuine act of kindness — sets off a chain reaction.

The beliefs, decisions, and conclusions you made to survive begin to soften.

The walls of “how the world is” and “who I am” start to melt and shift.

And as those structures reorganize, so does your internal landscape:

how you see yourself, others, the world — all of it changes.

You expand, without effort.

You breathe deeper.

Your body relaxes.

Your mind goes still.

And when thinking returns, it is already elevated awareness — a clearer sense of everything.

This is what comes from learning to turn within and to meditate.

A new awareness of the depth of you...
your organic connectedness with the All That Is…
and Life itself.

Living from that depth of connection changes everything.

More confidence.
More ease.
More joy, resilience, and clarity — all arising naturally.

And with that fullness, your choices shift.
They’re no longer driven by fearful need…
but by the calm knowing of who you are.